WRAP UP

It's been so crazy I haven't had time to blog. I start a blog and then I delete it half way through... yah, it's been that busy! My personal life isn't that crazy but my work life is a bit out of control. Let me explain...

Work: I am still working for Beckham Grill in Pasadena but that's extremely slow right now. In the summer time people don't want to eat prime rib, steaks and heavy food that goes along with that kind of good shit! The money I make is good because the server count on any given night has been reduced but I've been taken from five and six shifts down to three shifts... sucks huh?

I am also still working for Collin O'Neal helping him distribute, market and sell his World of Men series! We just came out with SERBIA two weeks ago (which you can purchase now on www.worldofmen.com) and it's selling quite well.

I also started helping my friend Nick develop his site called www.nicyoungxxx.com - for those of you that aren't familiar, Nick was a huge porn star a few years ago but decided to do behind the scenes stuff and work for the magazine Cybersocket. Fast forward a few years later he is back to his roots and has a cool site that is slowly being developed with a lot of good content. I am contributing weekly interviews with the hottest porn stars out there asking questions you want answered!!! So far it's a lot of fun!!!

It's been incredibly hard to maintain a blog lately, not only because I have been keeping myself busy but also because I find the summer makes me perpetually exhausted - mentally! I feel as if the sun is raping me and all my energy, I don't feel the need to comb my hair or look pretty like I usually do... is that bad? I think I need to get on some uppers. I've heard of people depressed and sad in the winter time but the summer time should motivate you to get out in the sunshine and be active... this summer has shown to be the opposite for me.

I just started dating a guy who is a blast from the past. Yes, if you read my blog then you know the psychic was correct. It's funny because I've met several guys from my past in the last few months but the psychic says that the first two are not "the ones" I should be with - sorry Jay!!! Dayum, I was a bit upset that it wasn't Jay - I mean he has a boyfriend but he is such a nice guy and too cute. Last night I had to finally breakdown and tell Jay how I felt about him - over text of course. We had a day long text fest occur and then I had to finally tell him that if he was single he'd be mine... maybe in the future, ya never know! But what I do know is that his boyfriend seems totally sweet and is a cute white boy - beautiful blue eyes!

The guy I started seeing is a blast from my past, as I previously mentioned and the psychic seems to agree that he is the one that I will date for the time being. He says that another guy with the letters "J", "D" or both of those letters will come into my life and interrupt the dating/relationship I am having. I wonder if Jay's middle name has a "D" in it!!! LOL

Tomorrow is our second official date, while our first date was more of a catching up and re-getting to know each other at a local Thai restaurant in Pasadena. Wish me luck tomorrow, dating is so much of an effort!!

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HAPPY FRIDAY!!!

This blog goes out to all of my friends abroad or in different cities throughout the cuntry *wink*!

In the last week Dina, Karen and a few others have emailed me complaining that I have not contacted them - I know I've been very bad at keeping in touch! Dina, now located in Argentina, said that I've been replaced by a gay that lives in Argentina but is originally from Britain - I bet he is hot!

So my life hasn't been too crazy, primarily working on my new job at Collin O'Neal studios and part-time at the restaurant. I converted my garage into a small work station outfitted with a desk, a laptop computer and a printer. I plan to have a guy come out and install a jack in the garage so I can have a landline phone out here and hook up my printer which doubles as a fax machine... too much fun I know! I am also contemplating putting up some PG-13 posters as decoration but I want to be sensitive to my dads eyes since he does come into the garage to get some of his stuff out whenever he stops by the old house!

This weekend was originally planned to be a relaxing weekend that I wanted to use to reconnect with local friends that I haven't seen in a month or so - somehow things got all fu*ked up and this weekend won't be used for that. Instead I am going to be working all weekend long so I can have enough money to buy George Michael tickets on Monday. It's funny, I have told numerous people about Mr. Michael's return to the U.S. and most people yawn at the idea. I've been a fan of his for so long and yet I've never seen him in concert before. In fact he is one of the people that I want to see in concert before I die.
I'm sure all music afficionados have their own list. Mine is:

1. Depeche Mode: Reunited with Alan Wilder's ass back in the band!
2. The Smiths
3. Elton John
4. Cher
5. George Michael
6. Dolly Parton

I'm sure I have more but I can't think right now, stay tuned, maybe I will add more -I know you are dying to know who I want to see, LOL!

Speaking of concerts, on the Today show this morning New Kids on the Block made their triumphant return to TV showing off their pretty faces to America. Okay, how good did they look? Growing up I can remember hanging out with Cindy and Julie in middle school (Annunciation Catholic School) obsessing over NKOTB, Paula Abdul, Depeche Mode and Arsenio Hall. Well we didn't obsess over Arsenio but we used to pretend we were on the show and Julie would be the audience... random thoughts! I remember our folders were filled with NKOTB pictures. Thinking back it's pretty amazing that i wasn't teased about liking the band. Going to a Catholic school for 8 years was a sheltered experience in a way. I essentially grew up with the same kids for 8 years and we all were stuck in one classroom for the entire day. No one called anyone else: gay, faggot or any other destructive names. Oh, wait, Pearla came to the school in 6th grade and we were pretty mean to her... again side note! Anyway, NKOTB is so exciting to me, seeing them on the TODAY show was pretty special too. I hope their new album is good, but let's face it, the odds are against them. The only thing left to figure out is if anyone will go to the concert with me!

I think Danny Wood is sooo freakin' hot as an adult... yummy!!!

Okay time to sign off... wow, what a random blog posting... sorry!!!

TEMPE: DAY 1

I've been in the Tempe area for a little over 24 hours now and I have one word to describe it: WOW!

Rich and I are floored with all the hot college studs that inhabit the area around Tempe, which shouldn't be too surprising since the Tempe is a college town, Arizona State University is the major attraction in town.

This weekend the city is a buzz with so many spectators! For one there is the Tempe Music Festival headlined by My Chemical Romance and Fergie. There is also a Arts and Crafts street festival about a block away from the loud outdoor music festival. The arts and crafts look fun, but only a few steps away (literally) is The Phoenix Forum in the amazing Tempe Mission Palms Hotel. The hotel is quite literally under lock and key - rented out for the entire weekend with security guards at every exit and entrance making sure only registered guests can come into the show. Rich and I have met severeal people on the street who are dying to get a peek inside and see what kinds of things are happening - thankfully you have me to tell you!!!

Last night when we got in we immediately met up with some of our buds from ManHunt and then went to grab some dinner at a local Urban Italian restaurant, don't
ask me what made it urban! After we trotted over to the Cybersocket party at the hotel to take advantage of the always open bar Cybersocket provides and mingle with Dustin Tyner, Mike True, Monica, Harker from AVN, the Next Door Male models and Tommy D of course - that boy is going to be the death of me! After the party we went upstairs to the str8 pool party which was pretty hot, but wasn't hot enough! We were informed of a Suite Party with live sex going on (we didn't see any) and an open bar so we hit that shiznit up - of course there were some hotties there and two hot bartenders who we had to have take off their shirt (ABOVE) and even see one of their private piercings. Adam from ManHunt is quite a negotiator with those str8 boys... I love Adam. Pictures to come later... don't worry!

Today (Friday) we woke up and went straight to the seminars and parties happening at 11 a.m.!!! The hotel is totally booked to the convention and it's nearly impossible to have to pay for food, drinks, water, alcohol, massages in the entire hotel. After some interesting seminars about future technology and pirating in the adult industry we had a few cocktails, discussed some business and then jumped in our bathing suits to go in the pool with the porn stars. Tommy D was up there with his hot friend prancing around in wet (see through) grey undies, Tommy is very lucky to have that as a friend... very HOT! And Tommy is looking svelt himself - he's lost a lot of weight to train for the AIDS Ride coming up - I will post a link later if you want to support him!

Tommy and I spoke briefly a few times today but I want to sit down and really talk to him about whats going on in his life. Wow, I can't believe its almost two years ago we met up in Phoenix and had that crazy night I shall never forget or keep reliving!!!

Now I need to rest up before we take off to the pool again at 10:30 and then go gay bar hopping with Brian Randall and the guys from ManHunt! Oh, speaking of ManHunt I have some amazing news regarding their site... stay tuned!!!

Blog More Tomorrow!!!

HEAVENLY DAY

The song above, incase you're wondering, is Patty Griffin singing "Heavenly Day."
Lately songs that create a certain ambiance and emotion really grab me buy the balls and suck me in. Griffin's song does exactly that.

I was online today looking at different blogs and noticed that The Sword did an amazing post of showing off porn stars baby pics! The two in particular that captured my eye and my heart were Collin O'Neal and Francois Sagats.


O'Neal (above), not only because he is my boss but because the picture looks EXACTLY like him... I LOVE IT Collin!!!


I love Francois' photo (above) because it looks nothing like him - I mean the smile is there but that'a about it. Speaking of Mister Sagat I spoke to him last night and found out some very cool stuff... I better keep my mouth shut!


Last but not least here is my baby picture. The Sword asked me to be a part but I forgot to submit mine in time. I am sorry Tim Valenti, next time I will make deadline *WINK*!!!

Good Night Ya'll!!!

LOTS TO TALK ABOUT

Wow, what a busy last four days! My trip to San Francisco was a whirlwind trip and while I had a good time soaking up some of the City's culture Los Angeles so desperately needs, I am glad to be home with my dog, my brother and my home!

I have lots of pictures to post on MySpace but until then I will show you some on here as a teaser. To see all the pictures from the GayVN awards and other highlights of my trip log onto www.myspace.com/modeguy

For my final night in San Francisco my boss, Collin O'Neal and I paid a visit to Club Papi's younger club called Pan Dulce. I met up with a guy named Robert and we hit it off instantly! Wow, what a good time we had together! It was so amazing today especially because we went to have breakfast on the 46th floor of the Hiltons 1st Tower to have breakfast at the CityScape Cafe. The meal is a bit pricey but you're paying for the almost 360 degree view of the city (below).
After a hearty breakfast Robert and I decided to walk the city and explore China town and other areas that we haven't seen in an extremely long time. I hadn't been to China Town in over ten years so it was so good to see it again. I think the San Francisco China Town area is so beautifully cohesive. The area is welcoming to everyone that wants to pay a visit but is still historically and wonderfully tied to serving their own community... just so damn beautiful! Before I get to the mushy stuff I have to say that I captured some, well... interesting images on my iPhone! Pictures say a thousand words, check them out below and let me know what you think about these crazy SF signs.

Doesn't your heart break for the first image and smile for the modesty of the second?
Robert and I walked hand in hand for nearly two hours unaffected about anybody else but what our talks and getting to know one another. Were there sparks? I definitly think so! Will we end up dating? I would love to, but I think we are at two different places in our lives. I really want to keep in touch with this stud hang out with him when he comes to LA next month and when we are in NYC in May together!
How hot is he? Love ya Robert, you're my boy! After our walk he drove me to the airport and dropped me off, leaving me with a kiss, he is a romantic one. I have to give him major kudos for holding my hand during our walk and being ultra comfortable for being 24 years old and safe in his own skin. I also have to mention how cute it was during breakfast when the waiter pulled out Roberts chair for him across the table from me but instead Robert insisted on sitting next to me so we could sit next to each other and eat together. I will admit I hate when people do this at my job but in this case the surprise of Robert doing it was very, very adorable!
Okay, I need to be up early to do more work for Collin O'Neal - it has been a long day! Tomorrow I will definitely post pictures on MySpace and talk about the GayVNs!

RANDOM THOUGHTS

Today was such a wierd day. Nothing spectacular happened in particular and yet I feel so content and happy right now. Of course I have many things on my mind, yet the little problems that have been bugging me lately aren't at the forefront of my mind. Right now I am slowly getting in prep mode to go up to San Francisco to network and start my new job with Collin O'Neal, which I am really looking forward too!

Numerous people have already told me that I will get laid up there and have lots of sex, but these are mostly people that do no work in the adult industry. Maybe it's my face or just my luck but I dont usually get laid on business trips - even if it's for something having to do with the adult industry! Last year I went up to SF and stayed in a huge room and it didn't have any strangers in it at all... hard to believe I know *wink*! This year will likely be the same as it was in Chicago and SF... no luck for me, but that is okay. Right?

I remember when I was 19,20 and 21-years old and ventured out to the various gay prides in different cities. I can recollect that I would let how many numbers I got from different dudes determine how much fun or success I had for that Pride Fest, pretty f*&king shallow and useless looking back. Now when I attend any Gay Pride festival if I get a nice smile from a goodlooking guy I am giddy and set for the entire day... oh getting older sucks *wink*!

This weekend will be a bit different because many of my friends in the adult industry that I adore will NOT be there. =( Francois Sagat said he is not attending, Victor Banda will also NOT be attending, and while I haven't spoken with Francesco D'Macho in a few months I don' think he will be there with Hot House either. Those girls are my b##ches and I love them so much... maybe they are all lying to me and are going to show up and surprise me... eh, eh? I won't hold my breath!

Did anyone watch Big Brother tonight? DRAMA!!!! That's all I have to say about that show so far.... very delicious!

EXCITING CHANGES

Thank God this week is over - Saturday is here alas! Last night I dreamt about going back to school and waiting tables – very strange especially since today I have an interview at a restaurant in Pasadena (wish me luck). For those who don’t know too much about me I used to wait tables – 10.5 years at Mimi’s Café to be exact. Ever since I started my job at Cybersocket I missed waiting tables. I know it sounds weird coming from someone who has a degree but waiting tables was so exciting and fun – taxing on your feet but fun nonetheless. The restaurant I am applying at is a very nice restaurant that has expensive meals – definitely not Mimi’s Café prices! Comparatively at Mimi’s Café two people could eat for under $30 for dinner and under $20 for lunch… Not the case at the place I am going to be interviewing today. I have a good feeling about this place and the food is impeccable so I am excited!

If you missed my earlier post this week I put my resignation in at Cybersocket – my last day being November 9, 2007 – 11 days before my birthday!
Cybersocket wanted to find a replacement for me as soon as possible so by Thursday afternoon they interviewed some applicants and made their decision. Starting on Monday I start training my replacement – I am actually excited about handing over the possession of the magazine and to see what direction he takes it!


This morning I spoke to my friend Collin O’Neal about his business and the exciting things that he has going on around him as well. I have said this before but Collin is one of the few guys from the adult industry that I genuinely trust and consider like a brother. Him and Rich, his business partner have always been warm and welcoming to me - they are just normal guys and big success will come to them. I remember when I first met Collin, Chi Chi contacted me and told me that her friend Collin O'Neal was in town and wanted to be booked at Cocktails with the Stars on a Thursday night. Now again, if you know me, I am not so quick to have just any white boy come down to CWTS and show their ass off! I am generally not attracted to, don't trust and don't like other white guys... LOL, no it's not self-racism, instead it's just my preference on who I choose to associate with! I remember coming home from work one night and I called Collin and spoke to him. I could instantly tell that he was not too receptive and was unsure of who I was. To make an already long story short, he loves Latin guys as well and is not attracted to white guys either - yes, we were made to be friends!!!


From then on Collin, Rich and myself would meet up in Las Vegas, Chicago, San Francisco and Los Angeles to hang out and check out the gay parties. I remember one night last January we went to Vegas and were ringside for what was to be a female mud wrestling contest... we should have stayed but we didn't. Say Collin, what ever happened to those photos???

Wow, it seems as if 2008 is going to be a year of change… dramatic change!! I wish I could speak of all the business ventures I have planned for 2008 but I guess you’re just going to have to wait and see what I’m talking about – in fact after November 9, I can give more details!

Stay tuned…

THE SF CREW

(Photo courtesy of Party with Brandon)

Although this picture is missing the team soccer mom, Brandon Baker, this is the team that stayed in two rooms at Hotel Britton in San Francisco this past weekend!

The picture above was taken on our way to breakfast Saturday morning. I suggested this restaurant that I go to everytime I am in the city and love. Don't ask me the name, everytime I go to the restaurant I forget the name. I can tell you it's on Taylor Street next to The Mark Twain Hotel and that it's decorated in pictures of Marilyn Monroe, Elvis Presley and James Dean. The place is very quaint and you can see the food being cooked right as you walk in the door!


Brandon bought our tables champagne from the store next door and he even shared it with the tables around us! That is how Brandon is by nature - this morning when he walked into work he had bought me Robeks's juice and a shot of wheat grass!

After breakfast we walked around the city, saw the Love Parade, and bought clothes.
I was so happy because I also caught up with Collin O'Neal and hung out with him for a while.


Okay more later on hanging out at the Titan Parties and seeing other porn stars and good friends!

Stay tuned...

SjB