SLEEP EASY???

Tonight I am going to sleep with my Roman Blinds open so that I can see the moonlight before I fall asleep. I also want to keep them open so I can see the sun rise in the morning. A few months ago I had no blinds to darken my room so every morning the suns warm rays would wake me up - how refreshing.

Speaking of sleep, the month of February has been a significant month for dreams. Last night was the second time I have dreamt of my mom this month. Come to think of it, I've never dreamt of my mom twice in a month. What is she trying to tell me? This is also the second consecutive dream in which my mom directly acknowledges my fathers marriage and seems to be okay with it. Is she trying to tell me that she is okay with the marriage? I think she knows that I know she is okay with it but what I am not okay with is the family and Jackie's fake personality. Is my mother telling me to get over it?

This month I've also thought about my future and who it will be with. I would be a damn liar if I didn't think about marriage, a family, children and other domestic things like that. Let's face it, I am not getting any younger - the big THIRTY is right around the corner and it has been a very long time since I dated anyone special.


Call me crazy but I am thinking about going to a psychic about all the issues above. Do you believe in psychics? I like to think that they have some unique clairvoyance about the future and about those who have passed on. On a somewhat seperate note for anyone who was raised in Los Angeles, do you remember Kenny Kingston? He was a frequent guest on Love Line back in the mid-90s. Is he still alive? Wow, I just checked he is. During the radio talkshow his catch phrase if you will was always saying "Hello Sweet Spirit." Do you remember that? He was pretty amazing and I can tell you some pretty creepy LIVE readings he did for callers. He was (and most likely still IS) the real deal!!

Last night I ran from bar to bar with my good friend and co worker Leslie Guetler from Beckham! I ran into a lot of good friends including one special person in particular. =)

Okay, time to go to bed... let's talk tomorrow!

CHECK HER OUT

Meet ADELE. I don't know too much about her except that she's a Brit and her voice is incredibly unique. Her website is exceptionally interactive and she has a presence on YouTube as well. Enjoy the following song Hometown Glory and after post me a comment letting me know what you think!

WHAT I LOVE

If there's one thing I would want everyone to know about me is just how much I love music. Okay, maybe that's a generic, much like saying 'everyone likes to smile." But music is a central part of my life, lyrics in particular really move me and can make me a sappy, hopeless romantic or direct me to the Internet to research a verse in a song. Natalie Merchant often quotes many folk songs that I love to look up on the Internet and read more about. One song in particular she sang that got me to think as a kid was the song called What's the Matter Here. Have you heard it? Well it's about child abuse and it's a pretty powerful song that is oddly accompanied by an upbeat backing musical outfit - typical of her former band 10,000 Maniacs. Please, if you haven't heard it then take a few minutes to listen in on a great, timeless song!


On my way to have dinner with a friend tonight I had my iPod on it's usual shuffle. Often times it replays the same old songs time and time again which gets a bit tiring, however tonight it played a song that brought me to tears. Strange because I didn't even know that I had this song on my iPod. What was it doing on there? How did I get it? Did I buy it? I forgot this Angelic song even exsisted, what a great song I let slip from my mind. I know this might sound a bit strange but the lyrics spoke very similarly to some thoughts that have crossed my mind in the past few days and weeks. The song made me vulnerable. After it ended, guess what I did? I sat in my car and listened to it again while waiting for my friend to arrive at the restaurant. Enjoy it below!



Speaking of music Taylor Dayne is on Jimmy Kimmel right now, I gotta see this diva sing! I can't wait to share more music with you tomorrow! Love you all...

WANNA SEE SOMETHING SCARY?

YES, YES, YES, YES - CBS ROCKS! CBS has just put season one and season two of The Twilight Zone on their site www.cbs.com.
Most likely the scariest and most blood curdeling television show to ever be broadcast, I am addicted to see timeless horror stories... GOOD LUCK SLEEPING TONIGHT!!!

SAGAT, CHECK THIS OUT!

Mister Sagat, you reading? Watch the following clip, but be patient, you'll be rewarded! For the rest of ya'll the following two clips are just two reasons why Brits will always do it better than us Yanks!

This one is just a phenomenal performance of
RiRi and the Klaxons!!!

THE BLUES

I'm sick, so please bare with me as I take my time getting all of my thoughts ands pictures gathered together from my trip!

LOTS TO TALK ABOUT

Wow, what a busy last four days! My trip to San Francisco was a whirlwind trip and while I had a good time soaking up some of the City's culture Los Angeles so desperately needs, I am glad to be home with my dog, my brother and my home!

I have lots of pictures to post on MySpace but until then I will show you some on here as a teaser. To see all the pictures from the GayVN awards and other highlights of my trip log onto www.myspace.com/modeguy

For my final night in San Francisco my boss, Collin O'Neal and I paid a visit to Club Papi's younger club called Pan Dulce. I met up with a guy named Robert and we hit it off instantly! Wow, what a good time we had together! It was so amazing today especially because we went to have breakfast on the 46th floor of the Hiltons 1st Tower to have breakfast at the CityScape Cafe. The meal is a bit pricey but you're paying for the almost 360 degree view of the city (below).
After a hearty breakfast Robert and I decided to walk the city and explore China town and other areas that we haven't seen in an extremely long time. I hadn't been to China Town in over ten years so it was so good to see it again. I think the San Francisco China Town area is so beautifully cohesive. The area is welcoming to everyone that wants to pay a visit but is still historically and wonderfully tied to serving their own community... just so damn beautiful! Before I get to the mushy stuff I have to say that I captured some, well... interesting images on my iPhone! Pictures say a thousand words, check them out below and let me know what you think about these crazy SF signs.

Doesn't your heart break for the first image and smile for the modesty of the second?
Robert and I walked hand in hand for nearly two hours unaffected about anybody else but what our talks and getting to know one another. Were there sparks? I definitly think so! Will we end up dating? I would love to, but I think we are at two different places in our lives. I really want to keep in touch with this stud hang out with him when he comes to LA next month and when we are in NYC in May together!
How hot is he? Love ya Robert, you're my boy! After our walk he drove me to the airport and dropped me off, leaving me with a kiss, he is a romantic one. I have to give him major kudos for holding my hand during our walk and being ultra comfortable for being 24 years old and safe in his own skin. I also have to mention how cute it was during breakfast when the waiter pulled out Roberts chair for him across the table from me but instead Robert insisted on sitting next to me so we could sit next to each other and eat together. I will admit I hate when people do this at my job but in this case the surprise of Robert doing it was very, very adorable!
Okay, I need to be up early to do more work for Collin O'Neal - it has been a long day! Tomorrow I will definitely post pictures on MySpace and talk about the GayVNs!